increments of blue

Smile mistaken naiveté
Behind glass walls truth to stay
Replication day by day
No longer want this way

Expect a cruel disguise
Through duplicated eyes
Singe from past regret
Reminded to forget

Intention to reverse
Weigh options of the worse
Aching skin of stone
Blue hearts of the lone

Begin to paint them red
To alter style of stead
Extend to hearts more blue
Spared increments of you

Oh, and if I tag you..please don't feel obligated to comment..I just like knowing that someone else reads them or can derive something of their own from them :)

so I was inspired by our studying the whole genre of blues in class..so I guess that's the theme that shines through h ere.. 

sunken standards

Elevate these sunken standards
Remove the rot of seeping shards
That threaten bruises of infections
Mentalities of shallow factions

Where confidence is bitter lost
Integrity is the inherent cost
Impossible kindness withheld before
Not vainly awaited anymore

His inability to pretend or care
Shall never again find me there
Niceties before never heard or told
Trade silver linings of gray for gold

To hope for change is to abandon
The ignorant influences of prison
Now choose only noble decency
And those endowed with gentility

so the whole gist of this is learning to keep my standards high following past experiences from settling low. and to any male readers of this..please don't assume this is about you, because I guarantee that he won't be reading it anyway..(appropriately)..

:chain: can you prove the BBC wrong? I DID!

The BBC believes most people will have only read 6 of the 100 books here. Can you prove them wrong?

Instructions:
1) Look at the list and put an 'x' after those you have read.
2) Put a % after those you've read a portion of.
3) Add a '+' to the ones you LOVE.
4) Star (*) those you plan on reading.
5) Tally your total read and put it in the title.

First of all I want to * all of them...
1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen (x+)
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien (x+)
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte (x+++++++++)
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling (x+)
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee ( )
6 The Bible (%)
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte (x+)
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell (x+++++++)
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman ( )
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens ( )
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott ( )
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy ( )
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller ( )
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare (%)
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier ( )
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien (x+)
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk ( )
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger ( )
19 The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger ( )
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot ( )
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell ( )
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald (x)
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens ( )
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy ( )
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams ( )
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh ( )
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky ( )
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck ( )
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll ( )
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame ( )
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy ( )
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens ( )
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis ( )
34 Emma - Jane Austen ( )
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen (x+)
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis ( )
37. Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini ( )
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres ( )
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden ( )
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne ( )
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell (x+++++)
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown (x+)
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez ( )
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving ( )
45 The Woman in White - ( )
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery ( )
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy ( )
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood ( )
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding ( )
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan ( )
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel ( )
52 Dune - Frank Herbert ( )
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons ( )
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen (x+)
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth ( )
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon ( )
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens (%)
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley (x)
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon ( )
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez ( )
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck ( )
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov ( )
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt ( )
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold (x+)
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas (x+)
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac ( )
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy ( )
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding ( )
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie ( )
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville ( )
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens (x)
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker (x+++++++++)
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett ( )
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson ( )
75 Ulysses - James Joyce ( )
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath ( )
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome ( )
78 Germinal - Emile Zola ( )
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray ( )
80 Possession - AS Byatt ( )
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens ( )
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell ( )
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker ( )
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro ( )
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert ( )
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry ( )
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White ( )
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom ( )
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle ( )
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton ( )
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad ( )
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery ( )
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks ( )
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams ( )
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Toole ()
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas (%)
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare (x)
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl (x+++++)
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo (x+++)

past the edges

I wish to show you the outside of the box
So you can be able to shatter the locks
That bar your mind from the leaps
That take us where the world keeps

The knowledge which we all can own
Regardless of where we've been or flown
Free yourself of what you're told
That causes you to early be old

Take then what helps you retain youth
Those things filled with hope and truth
The open soul is the one to grow
Outside of what we think we know

So while I was watching the Oscars..I was also doing this :)

future forms / ribbons

Clear black ink on ivory tree
Hoping you can soon see
Silently waiting for the light
When that little light bulb finally becomes bright

Murky thought in grey matter
Caught up in notions of the latter
Swimming between solid barriers
Unable to make it to their carriers

Luminous voice with precise words
With carefully chosen edges and curves
Voiced when necessity makes a debut
In hopes that it will finally get through

To the harshness that stubbornly shells your good
However infrequently be your mood
Though you may not want or care to know
These thoughts to you I wish to show

These contradictions that splinter seams
And stir up thoughts restricted to dreams
Hates and loves meant to stay within
And hopes that reality will bring good to win

But these jagged colors will stay concealed
Left to future keys to be revealed
Red ribbons to be sliced with blades
And to the just all debts be repaid

I think this one is pretty similar to the other one, but maybe this one can someday be a song ?? :)

undeserved compassion - yay, this one has a title!

:::for anyone who finds themselves in the hamster-wheel cycle of exercising compassion while enduring the crappy.. :)

Transparency of the soul always unnoticed
Innermost fibers unveiled after supposedly visible

Actions activated by the green-eyed monsters within
Hurt exerted on the tolerant
Without realization

The rigidity of foundations never yielding
Steel skins worn when internally disarmed

Molds molded through incessant love and giving
Pity taken on the inconsiderate
With reluctance

Inexplicable words and deeds melt hopes of decency
Yet the loyalist's morals are empowered and withstand 

:chain: what you need is...

Go to Google and type in your first name + needs. For example: Bob needs. Write the first ten (or more) things you find.I typed mine in the order they came on the screen.

Brenna needs her own network
Brenna needs to fart!
Brenna needs help..
Brenna needs to return to a normal life
Brenna needs to make a lil love, do a little dance and get down asap, hahaha
Brenna needs a mature family with no small children
Brenna needs to get over herself
Brenna needs to feel absolutely confident
Brenna needs numbers
Brenna needs ideas and articles
Brenna needs candy and presents

HAHA, pretty much sums it up!! lol..

:chain: name game

1. YOUR REAL NAME:
Brenna Amy McCune

2.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:(mother and fathers middle names)
Marie Edmund

3.NASCAR NAME:(first name of your mother's dad, father's dad)
Frank John

4.STAR WARS NAME:(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)
mccbr (ha, nonsense)

5.DETECTIVE NAME:(favorite color, favorite animal)
Turquoise Panther

6.SOAP OPERA NAME:(middle name, town where you were born)
Amy Mableton

7.SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning)
The Burgundy Tea

8.FLY NAME:(first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)
Brne (what?!? mine are stupid)

9.STREET NAME:(fav ice cream flavor, fav cookie)
Fugde Brownie Sugar (how in the world is this a street name?!?)

10. PORN NAME: (1st pet's name, street you grew up on)
Autumn Glenn

11.YOUR GOTH NAME:(black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black Rose

12. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume/cologne, fav candy
Treselle Reeses (hahaha)

at it again..

anxious agonies inflame angry angst
choose to falsely forget their existence
to uphold bluffs, continue acts, maintain masks

past blindness molds future unconsciousness
dead ends structure movements forward
shape steps, mobilize strings

transparent goals recast in softer stone
detection of the inevitable coming
restrictions then change 

okay, I feel these are pretty cryptic so I'd like to give you some insight as to where I'm coming from so as not to leave you in the dark :) ...

speaking of dark..been there done that. and the things that I learned there could not be learned elsewhere, but I'm in the process of trying to utilize those new found skills/insights...

In unhappiness I found indifference. Indifference to outside influences and opinions. Which is completely different than being unaware. I am aware of the common perception and choose to be indifferent, to zone out when things will only cause more harm. In a way, it is a selective blockade, allowing me to pick and choose what will effect those movements forwards. The indifference lets me put on blinders to the things that burn, and stay in the coolness of shadows..(where there is an issue with invisibility, but that's another story..and possibly another poem ;)). It is here I can start building my own being. Where I can make what I want out of myself, choosing only the positive and casting away the negative. Now here is my foundation, independent of dead ideas.

Oh, and I've noticed that these end up being mostly nouns and verbs because I try to keep all the "me"s and "I"s out of it, so everyone can take them in their own way.. 

:chain: the people in my life..in a chain letter!

only if you want... Go through your wall posts and list the last 21 people to post on your wall. Do not list any repeats; simply go to the next name in the list. Then answer the 42 questions pertaining to the 21 names. When you're finished, tag all 21 people on the list, so the cycle can continue. If you've been tagged, copy and paste this information into a new note and follow the directions above.

1. Sandra
2. Stuart
3. Keisha
4. Allicia
5. Monica
6. Micaela
7. Christina
8. Beth Lynn
9. Andrea
10. Hannah
11. Sammantha
12. Porsha
13. Raha
14. Amanda
15. Alex
16. Brianah
17. Joelle
18. Andrew
19. Chris
20. Kara
21. Blane

1. How did you meet 1?
we went to Garrett middle school together back in the day..ah I miss it actually

2. What would you do if you never met 14?
I would have no way of actually obtaining an English Bulldog puppy :)

3. Would you date 20?
haha, no but I still love her! :P

4. Have you ever seen 8 cry?
nah

5. Would 3 and 13 make a good couple?
nope, this is a silly question

6. Describe 9
she is one of those people who you can talk to for HOURS!! our convos in spanish were unending

7. Do you like 16?
of course, she's one of the most genuinely sweet people I have ever met (grammar there?)

8. Do you think 6 is attractive?
indeed, and I'm so jealous of her hair!! :)

9. When was the last time you talked to 19?
like a day ago through fb

10. Would you ever date 10?
haha, nope

11. Where does 15 live?
somewhere in Athens I think..

12. What is the best thing about 21?
His photography skills! great at catching you at the perfect moment!

13. What would you like to tell 18 right now?
hm..good luck with your reaction paper, lol

14. What is the best thing about 7?
she's the funnest person to talk to! I remember our convos being quite lively :)

15. Have you ever kissed 11?
no, and these romance questions are getting more and more retarded

16. What's the best memory you have of 3?
ah, the entire magnet experience..getting through those classes with those teachers lol

17. When's the next time you're going to see 12?
hopefully soon for lunch to catch up before I transfer :)

18. Is 15 pretty?
Pretty?? lol, handsome yes..but I think it would be insulting to call him pretty

19. What was your first impression of 4?
that I knew her from somewhere but couldn't place it..but I figured it out through context..high school!

20. Is 13 your best friend?
nah, but i have a feeling she would be a darn good one :)

21. Have you seen 16 in the last month?
unfortunately, no..but we were discussing poetry on fb recently

22. When was the last time you saw 14?
last semester I think

23. Have you been to 21's house?
no

24. When is the next time you'll see 10?
dunno, maybe at another party..

25.Are you really close to 1?
I'd say so, yes..we hung out all the time and talked about lots of stuff in middle school

26. Would you give 20 a hug?
yes, a big one! :P

27. Have you ever been to 17's house?
nah, but we worked some long hours at hobby lobby together..

28. Do you know a secret about 5?
haha, she'd get it out of me if I did, but no.

29. Describe the relationship between 14 and 19?
nonexistent..this doesn't make sense

30. What's your friendship like with 5?
ah...good one..she's my second mother, and I love her dearly

31.Have you ever danced with 18?
nah, but that would probably be fun :P

32. How do you know 21?
through Sigma Alpha

33. Does 2 have a bf?
I hope not..lol, he has a girlfriend

34. Have you ever wanted to punch 4 in the face?
heck no, why would I want to do that!?

35. Has 11 met your mother?
nope

36. Have you traveled anywhere with 12?
i don't think so..maybe a magnet trip at some point..but I can't remember

37. If you gave 7 $100, what would they spend it on/
I really don't know..

38. What's your best memory of 2?
haha, any of the shenanigans at the vet..and there were plenty

39.What is the one thing you most want 8 to know?
that I will miss her being away from Sigma Alpha and UGA, but it's all good

40. What was the last thing you did with 15?
talked religion, which is always really cool

41. When did you meet 20?
Garrett middle school again..fun times

42. What do you wish for 4?
for anything she wants to come true!!